May 23, 2009

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First week of internship went fine. So far, so good.

As bizarre as it sounds, work's tiring even though all I did this week was being introduced to the operations of the department and had some trainings. I guess the first takeaway from the internship would be to have a healthy lifestyle again - sleep before midnight and have my meals on time! Hawker food around the area is really good.

It's a small world indeed, everyone's practically either first degree or second degree friends in some way or another. On top of our common friends, majority of the interns are girls, hence we're pretty much on a comfortable level. That's a good start to working together and experiencing the same shit for 10 weeks :) Something interesting: for the first two days I hung out with the NUS girls, and when I finally initiated a conversation with the SMU girls, the NUS girls actually asked whether I did an exchange in SMU before, because I sounded so familiar with the happenings of SMU. And the confusion didn't end there! When i told them I'm indeed from SMU, they let out shocked and puzzled faces because they were certain they "saw me in lectures". as much as I hate to think I have a common face, I shall think of it as the ability of fit into different groups ^^;

I just wished I could be assigned to more demanding assignments. Afterall, everyone wants to make the best out of their internships.

1 down, 9 more to go!

May 5, 2009

Re-play


If you were given a chance to re-live your life, how would it be any different?

Some people wouldn't change anything. They say it is because of those experiences, good or bad, that shaped them to become who they are now. Some people live through a bed of roses, so inevitably they wouldn't want to give up or part with the possessions they are blessed with. Some people live through a life in slums and which most people would find a misery, yet they are contented and satisfied with the bare minimum.

I guess some or most would have already known or easily guess that for me, my greatest regret, apart from quitting piano, is probably my education route. If by any means there's a time machine or a rewind button, I would probably re-take o levels, get into my ideal junior college, and finally my ideal university. If that's too much to ask, I would just want to re-do my university years, start anew, and as cynical as it probably sounds, do it the EXPECTED way, the RIGHT way, instead of fumbling my way through and reassuring myself it is part of the 'experience'.

Then again, this is life, isn't it? I'll most likely experience more and bigger setbacks in the future and when I think back, I'll probably laugh myself silly for treating these little nitty gritty like a setback. Life is not just about THE piece of paper, yet no one can deny that it is an important piece of paper. Different people have different expectations yes, but when the world's becoming an elitism world, it sucks to be mediocre.

Who knows, perhaps if I am really given the chance to change my life, things would still end up the same. Would I feel even more terrible, after knowing that I've slipped the opportunity for the second time?