Re-play

If you were given a chance to re-live your life, how would it be any different?

Some people wouldn't change anything. They say it is because of those experiences, good or bad, that shaped them to become who they are now. Some people live through a bed of roses, so inevitably they wouldn't want to give up or part with the possessions they are blessed with. Some people live through a life in slums and which most people would find a misery, yet they are contented and satisfied with the bare minimum.

I guess some or most would have already known or easily guess that for me, my greatest regret, apart from quitting piano, is probably my education route. If by any means there's a time machine or a rewind button, I would probably re-take o levels, get into my ideal junior college, and finally my ideal university. If that's too much to ask, I would just want to re-do my university years, start anew, and as cynical as it probably sounds, do it the EXPECTED way, the RIGHT way, instead of fumbling my way through and reassuring myself it is part of the 'experience'.

Then again, this is life, isn't it? I'll most likely experience more and bigger setbacks in the future and when I think back, I'll probably laugh myself silly for treating these little nitty gritty like a setback. Life is not just about THE piece of paper, yet no one can deny that it is an important piece of paper. Different people have different expectations yes, but when the world's becoming an elitism world, it sucks to be mediocre.

Who knows, perhaps if I am really given the chance to change my life, things would still end up the same. Would I feel even more terrible, after knowing that I've slipped the opportunity for the second time?